RED CARPET UNIVERSITY

Groundwork built with excellence, pride and reputation delineate what makes a man believe laudable. After high school who would’ve wanted not to enroll in an exclusive school? A golden ticket school could give you after graduating? A golden advantage to owe you a place in your most desired position and aspirations?
I used to be so much in a perplexed world when I was in my senior year in high school. I was so terrified to choose a course that will suit my potential, where I can excel. I was never certain of what to choose, where to go to, and where to start. I can’t do anything at that time; I was just a damn average senior student! Though I have few in my mind, I was so reluctant and pressured if I’ll do well or I’ll fail in the end.
One of the factors that I deem the most is, are we financially capable of sending me to a good school like my older sister and brother? And the sad part is we’re not. My family invested so much from my older siblings so I have to suffer or yet be in to a non-exclusive school n the country. I easily accepted the fact and moved on to the next vital factor, choosing the right course. Almost half of my batch mates are so persevered to take up nursing, the most in-demand course, so I go with the flow not thinking of consequences, the mere fact that out of the subjects that I took up in high school science is somehow my waterloo. I am no good in memorizing; I excel in math, chemistry and English. But, I still took up nursing in a state college in the south.
My first few days in college we’re a rollercoaster ride, everybody seemed to be different. Everybody shares lots of desire in finishing the course with excellence, and me? I don’t even think of that, all that is in my mind was just to pass like I used to during high school days. But all of a sudden everything turned out to be wrong. My insecurities just made me feel so awful and ignorant. Just the fact that everybody is getting high grades, I am not. They made me feel that I don’t belong, I am no genius like them is what I’m always saying. Tons of excuses never did a step to make the obstacle as a challenge for me to get the same, to grow.
The first two semesters, I must say was no good compare to the performance than others. I consider myself as the most ignorant out of the entire batch, a crap. At that time I almost give up but my parent is not considering the fact, if I don’t excel in my course, why force myself to like it? All I’m thinking at that time why not give it a shot anyways if I finish I have a future ahead of me. But, the most tragic event happened; I fail in my major subject. Things just suddenly brought to my mind, the humiliation to my peers; do I have the face on facing them after that? Am I still worthy to the spot that I’ve got out of thousand who wished to be in my shoes? Where will I go after that if we don’t have resources to send me into another nursing school that pays 10x compare to my school? Will I finally have the courage to hold the title as the black sheep of the family? So I chose to stop to escape from humiliation, I chose to stop and I also thought it would benefit my family also, financially.